i don't even have a pla..

by - May 29, 2017

This post was originally titled 'I don't even have a pla (or HELP I'VE FINISHED UNI NOW WHAT)' but I felt it was a little long and in-your-face-ish so I made it the first line instead-which on second thoughts probably doesn't help that latter point in the slightest but moving on because I've officially finished university!!!!  My  assignments have been submitted and my performances are finished, I've even got every single grade back already but the question on everyones mind is now what? Well, in the words of Phoebe Buffay "I don't even have a pla", options- yes, I have tons of those but an actual plan? Not at all, not even a little, mini, tiny one!


I don't have a plan and I don't really know how I feel about it all either, to be honest with you I don't think it's quite sunk in it.  I've only officially been finished for just over a week so I haven't even hit the peak of boredom lows yet; I've had quite a busy week as well (which included accidentally walking eight miles..) so that has helped- or hasn't helped I guess.  I feel lost and weird and as if even though the whole entire world might be my oyster I'm not even ready to scale the pearl yet.  I've spent my entire life stepping from one education system to the other; dreaming and longing for the day when I would finally finish but now that time has come and I have absolutely no idea what to do with my days.

I've just spent three years studying for a degree in Drama Studies; I've worked my flipping socks off and have somehow managed to come out with a 2.1 overall and while I'm so so happy about that and about how far I've come in terms of confidence I don't really know what to do with it.  I don't want to teach; not straight away anyway, and I don't want to get stuck inside an office 9-5 Monday to Friday.  I don't regret my degree or choosing to stay in education but I just have no idea what the next step is, I do know that it feels easier to eat chocolate buttons and watch films with my housemates and pretend I'm not moving home in a month to start a new chapter in my life- cliche & cheesy but oh so true. 

I'm scared to apply for jobs because what if I get comfortable and just don't do all the things I want to do but at the same time I desperately need to get a job; partly because doing nothing in the middle of the countryside for an indefinite amount of time will get very dull very quickly..and partly because you know, money.  I'm worried that I'll never use my degree again in my life as anything more than a conversation topic (an expensive conversation topic) and I'm worried that I will use it for something more than a chat and will somehow realise I'm on a completely wrong career path.  I don't know what I want to do first because there are just so many things I want to do I just can't pick. 

Part of my university, 4 days after arriving.  Sept. 2014.

I want to travel, I want to write, I want to see the world; jump on a plane and just go.
I want to start doing all the things I've watched other people do through a screen and start ticking things off my list of dreams.  I want to curl up in the sun like a cat and just sleep for a solid six weeks because after third year that's all I need.  I want to put a ban the words "so what are you doing next" with a fine of several pounds and a peanut butter Kit-Kat to be bought by anyone who breaks it.  I want to rewind back to sitting in my best friends room in halls, eating pizza and watching films until the early hours; more concerned about debating which of Sophie's potential dads should be the actual dad in Mamma Mia than anything else.  

Ultimately though I think I'm alright with not having a pla; don't get me wrong- I'd love to be able to know what I'm doing but I think being a little lost is good; now is my time to try out things, go off adventuring on my own because I have no reason not to, this is my time to be safe but slightly reckless because I have carpe diem tattooed on my wrist and for my entire life I've been cautious and careful and I need this time to dive headfirst into whatever life throws at me.  So I'm finished with education, with deadlines and with planning out my time between this essay and that scene and for now I'm just running with the P and hoping that L, A and N appear along the way somewhere.

love el
xo

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18 comments

  1. Not having a plan can be so scary but I'm sure things will fall into place!
    Glad you've decided to make the most of not having a plan! Sometimes we put too much pressure on ourselves to have everything figured out but its totally not necessary!

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    1. It's so scary! But I hope so :) that's very true! Thankyou for reading! xx

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  2. Congratulations on finishing your degree sweetpea! I feel like there's a Friends quote for every situation hahaha! This sounds exactly like the situation I'll be in next year but you're right, it's definitely the time to discover what's out there in the world. I'm sure you'll find something you'll love doing xxx

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    1. Thankyou lovely! Oh there really is; ah goodluck with the next year then! And thankyou so much, I hope so! :D xx

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  3. Not having a plan can be scary, but also a good thing, it means the world is your oyster and you can decide what to do next! A massive congrats on finishing Uni! X

    Karina | http://karinahearts.com

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  4. It is always so hard to know what you want to do after uni. I had no plan either. I knew what I liked and what I didn't like but there was so many things I had no idea of. It is scary but okay not to have a plan. How can people expect us to know in few years our plans for the next 50?! xx corinne

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  5. I've finished uni now so I can totally understand how having no plan feels but I've decided what I'm doing now x

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  6. That's amazing! Congrats on finishing uni. It's okay to not have your whole life figured out yet lol you will future it out, as you said just start experiencing things and going on adventures. It will come to you :) Loved this post!

    Nikki O.
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  7. I love this post! I’ve just finished my first year and it’s comforting to know that we don’t need a plan necessarily. I’m excited for you and all the possible opportunities you have ahead of you, good luck!! xx
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  8. Congratulations!!! I certainly didn't have a plan, and I loved it - whole world of opportunities out there! Go jump on a plane, do whatever it is YOU want to do! Well done again, amazing achievement :)
    Hels xx
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  9. Congratulations on finishing your degree! And while I can understand not wanting to get sucked into the 9-5 life immediately, I can also tell you from experience that no job has to last forever if you don't want it to ❤️❤️. You've got plenty of time to try out all sorts of new things!

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    Emily
    emilyhallock.blogspot.com

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  10. This post rings so true to me. I'm very close to 25 and up until recently I didn't even have a p never mind plan.

    Graduating from uni is so difficult and it can take time to fine your feet which you definately will do! Love this post.

    Em,
    Onlythejade.blogspot.co.uk

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  11. Congratulations on getting a 2:1,that is amazing! Everything will work out I'm sure and I wouldn't worry about not having a plan, who does?! You have the flexibility and time to do what you want!

    Kirsty | The Monday Project | themondayproject.co.uk

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  12. Love this post, and especially your writing style! I think it's all to do with mindset, not everything in life needs a plan and sometimes... you get only the best from it- but it's scary and I know the feeling! Congratulations on finishing uni!!

    Gabija | everylittlethingblog.weebly.com

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  13. I relate to this post as I have finished uni as well and have no plan.I 100% agree with you about it's alright to be lost.we definitely gonna figure it all out someday.enjoy your free time x


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  14. When I finished uni a couple of years back babe, I had no clue what was next or what I was going to be doing with my life... to be honest I still don't really know what I'm doing half the time, haha! I started blogging again and now I'm a full-time blogger and really couldn't be happier so I really feel that things happen for a reason and what's meant to be for you will fall into place when the time is right. Until then.. enjoy your spare time and free time and catch up on everything you wanted to do in uni: books, tv shows, movies, spending time with friends and family, etc etc. 🌸💗✨

    With love, Alisha Valerie. x
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  15. I love this post! So many of my friends are currently in the same position and it is difficult but you need to think about what's best for yourself💖 If that means taking 6 months out, travelling, going back to your part time job or taking time to plan everything out than so be it! Everything happens for a reason and everything will fall into place... good luck with whatever it is you decide to do! X

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  16. Don't worry, I think we ALL feel lost, especially when we finish uni. Just take it step by step and enjoy the ride. There's no point in figuring it out at once or having a set plan because it will definitely change along the way. But most importantly stay positive! and Congratulations :)

    Nicole | Bad with Directions | badwithdirections.com

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